Things I'll Never Know

• What makes up 95% of the universe?

• What is consciousness?

• If God exists.

• If songs come true.

• Why clouds resemble shapes.

• If ghosts are just a metaphor for grief.

• If my mind is actually a black hole.

• Why my brain won't just function normally.

• Why people remember one childhood afternoon but forget the hundreds of others.

• Why places you've known forever suddenly feel strange after someone leaves.

• Why some friends feel more like home than home ever did.

• Why I can't explain my emotions in my mother tongue.

• My grandmother's last thoughts.

• My best friend's home from when I was six.

• Where I hid my grief.

• If I can wash out guilt.

• Why my father hates me.

• Where do I put these memories?

• Why my stomach hurts when I think of that one school day in 2013.

• Why I still feel it on my skin after eleven years.

• What do I do with the things I cannot forget?

• Why we don't talk anymore.

• What your love feels like.

• How your eyes look in the sunlight when you're wearing your favourite shirt.

• Why I still love you.

• Why you never chose me.

• Why wasn't I enough?

• Where does it end?